Frustrated

I'm writing this post well past my bedtime, but decided to quickly update my blog since it as been too long once again.  At this point in my life, it seems I'm doing nothing but school work and more school work!  I've been contemplating whether all the work I'm putting into my classes is actually worth it or not.  Most of the time, I'm feeling it is not, and wonder if I should quit, and wholeheartedly be a mother and wife once again.  I truly miss my normal duties, as my hubby has graciously stepped in and taken over what I cannot seem to keep up with these days!  I've been VERY frustrated about this, as well as feeling very guilty!  There are so many things that need to be accomplished, and none of it is getting done, except the basic needs.  The basement is a catastrophic mess, the yard looks despicable, my "Fall" decorations are stacked away in the garage somewhere, and the list goes on ... I suppose I'm to accept this change in my life, and consider the task at hand, but it is difficult for me to do.  I feel God has given me the enjoyment and contentment of just being a mom and housewife; so why should I continue with the education thing?  Who knows?  Maybe God has a special plan in the future for me somewhere, but right now I'd rather be cleaning, ironing, cooking, and whatever else life brings my way.  So, when you think of it, please remember me in prayer.  I'm a person that doesn't like to do anything, unless I can give it my very best ~ haphazard is not acceptable in my mind.  So, essentially, it is either schoolwork all the time until the job is done to the best of my ability, or none at all.  I know there are bad sides to this philosophy, but that is the way God has made me, and it seems nothing else works for me.  I've just rambled on about my frustrations, and the things that are on my mind tonight, or I think I need to say, "this morning" which has become the "norm" for me these days.  Sorry,  this post is nothing spectacular, just an ordinary life striving to please my Master!